It's So Hard.

The moment when you look up and she's the first person you see. Knowing that she used to be your best friend. The girl that you did everything with. The one who you had a million inside jokes with. It was so hard seeing us just walk right past each other and not say a word. It crushed me, Knowing that there was nothing I could do. It was so weird for me when we would randomly make that awkward eye contact and I couldn't even get up and go talk to you because there was no longer a relationship between us. All that I could hear in my mind was the things that were said about me. Every single word and every single sentence kept repeating over and over again in my mind. It would not leave. When I heard all the stuff that you are going to have to do and the stuff that you won't be able to do, all because of this whole incident it broke me down. I felt like everything was my fault. I felt like maybe it wasn't right to do what I did. But then I realized that what I did was to help you. Even tho were not friends. It didn't mean that I didn't care for you. I know it was the right thing to do. All I wanted to do was to make sure you got help. 

Almost Given Up.

The moment were you feel like your in complete madness. All I can hear is screaming and yelling. I try to just block it all out and act like noting is going on. But all the sounds won't leave me alone. It feels like there taking over me. I try to let it go. But it just keeps coming back. All the words, The tears, The Yells, it never goes away. It's like a song that has been stuck in your head all day and you just can't stop humming it. I won't understand how they can handle all this arguing. I sure can't. They say there trying to save this family. Well if you really are then start doing something about it. I am done trying. I have almost given up. I don't know how to help or what I can even do anymore. You say you need all of us to help change this family. Well I don't know what I can do anymore. You have promised that this family would be fixed. Well look at it now? It seems like it has gotten worse. If this family doesn't change soon then it never will.